Listening to : Day That I Die / Good Charlotte
I called my mother
Told her I loved her
I begged her not to cry
I wrote her a letter
I said I'd miss her
And signed that goodbye
You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die
Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I died)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I died)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I died)
All alone, but I feel fine (the day that I died) strangely enough, i don't really did like GC lately,
thought predictable was pretty whiny, but i loved the lyrics
GC's great. All their songs have simple, yet realistic meanings in them,
so natural, emotive, a way of expressing human feelings.
but i guess, they've always been pretty good.
it's 11.51 now and i'm writing this sentence.
i'm tired, of everything, tired of:
`dragging myself out of bed every early morning
`walking to the interchange to find i don't have the bus fare
`standing up for assembly each day to sing the national anthem
`waking up to reality every day, i want to live in my dreams
`sharing a seat on the bus with a person
`tripping on my words when i talk to her
sometimes, you just feel tired of life
tired of the people living in it
it's too cumbersome to go on, to move on
maybe for some, their dreams spur them on
whilst others, they just wander forward with aimless purpose
i don't want to be like them,
not an idealist who'll never acheive his dreams
nor a souless being without passion
i just want to live it my way
to walk my own path, not governed by paper, by rules, by authority
sure, authority keeps us in check
paper grades give us the edge in this fast-paced economy.
but think about it, it's so fast our grades will probably..
become null anyway, seeing the pace of study nowadays.
i hate authority. hate people i don't respect boss me around.
don't push me, and i'll listen to you,
i'm not rebellious, i just hate your condescendence
get it into your thick skulls that you can't force respect
i'll still spit on your graves
random rantings _ //
so chua has a big tai ji with his classmate
this bloke named wei y* yeah
he supposedly lashed out at this innocent girl
'cos he felt so deprived and sad that everyone was daoing him
what can i say, if your face sucks, improve your attitude
if your attitude sucks, you better have a really good face to hide it
if both suck, you can just suck shit and die, why?
because honestly no one cares, only your mom and your pet dog
some people just want attention so they do stupid things to get it
like this dude, who sat at a corner sulking
'cos no one wanted to pick him in their group
and when an innocent girl asked him a question
he just bit her head off, congratulations, you made a new enemy
get some 1337 social engineering skills you dickwart
oh, if my dearest readers are wondering why the hell i give a shit
it's because i've met this guy before
Seoul G. at Taka, chua invited us to his class gathering
and this bloke not only fucked our table seating up
(we were there seperately, only together for company)
and he put us on one of his grimy, used tables
like wtf? there was charred meat on the bloody barbequey-thingy
and his half-drunk drink was on the table. totally wtf man
and i hated his face, his shirt, his breath, his smell
gosh. and his attitude.
we were fooling around at our table.. hey we're only guys ok haa
stuffing unfinished food and stuff into the fire ((:
yet he still has to come over and kpkb because it's not polite
wtf man, FUCK OFF i don't even know you and you come and talk cock?
freak show. go and die la.
hope chua arranges the date to whack your face in
then i'll french that girl in front of you and spit on you afterward
kicks,, oh, the kicks that i get.
end of random ramblings _ //
well, this is a pretty long post.
school's tomorrow, but it's the week end
so life gets sweeter i guess. haa
results coming back soon. hopefully none on friday
so i can enjoy my weekend in peace.
it's a constant :
DotA will always have shitholes
so what to do? TAKE THEM DOWN LOR lol-
Gg No Re- t('-' t) hullo nurse.
wS thought about life at 11:36 pm
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so i haven't been blogging for the past weeks, why?
been playing some DotA,
but been occupied with this online friend making service, Friendster.
introduced to it by the dearest Estherr Smell
i've been pre-occupied meeting friends, making friends, then adding them
haha, what the hell
i don't really know why i'm doing this
is it so hip? is it so in?
can't believe the guys are doing it too..
qing, shaun, does su have friendster too?
i guess, friend + gangster = friendsterhow many chao bengs out there want to be my friend?
so so many, even Estherr gets weird requests from people:
"hey pls dun mind,im jus feel very boring jus wanna find sum1 to chat wif.dun worry i got no any ill intention,jus pure clean chat.hope u dun mind.."
J-A-S-O-N
pure clean chat!? who even wants pure clean chat with a total stranger
somebody seriously needs some remodelling in the brain,dept.
i guess, this is just a hypothesis but maybe,
30% of the people on friendster are just lonely and needing female companionship
yeah, even the girls too
but what can i say.. to tell a total stranger you don't have ill intentions
that's just weird.
HAHA. don't you find it weird. anyway.
enough about this silly online friend-network whatnot and onto the deeper stuff
things such as how do i get my guinea pig to squeak when i want it to
he squeaks when i get water for him
he squeaks when i feed him
but he doesn't squeak when i pet him
weird animal, but he's so cute, so i'll just forgive him
damn cute.
haha.
oh, how i
love Ben & Jerrys
here's the part where i tell the whole world my favourite food
oh, i
love ice-cream, i
love chocolates
the world's a much better place with those 2 in it
definitely. if you don't agree, you're an ill-informed, poor-taste hermit
go crawl back under the rock where you came from
because i'm always right :)
anyway,
so i finished this tub of Ben & Jerrys, madness
but it's so addictive! The Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough flavour
really
mmMMmm. other great flavours include :
`the
Chubby Hubby one, vanilla with peanut butter and pretzels
`the
NY Super Fudge, with fudge, walnuts, pecans and almonds in chocolate
`the
Chunky Monkey one, banana ice cream with fudge chunks!
`the
Phish Food one, chocolate ice cream with marshmellow, fudge fish and caramel
oh my GOD. just thinking about it makes me hungry.
i'm going to get me another pint right NOW.
sigh. i'm a icecreamholic
and proud to be one !
hmm, i think if it's time for me to die
i'll choose to die by overeating on B&Js hahaha.
oh yes i'm mad.
wS thought about life at 3:56 pm
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Listening to : If You Leave - Nada Surf
So if you leave, don't leave now
please don't take my heart away
promise me just one more night,
then we'll go out seperate ways.
We'll always have time on our side
but now it's fading fast
every second, every moment
we gotta make it last.
-yawns. i swore i did that 38478330 times today,
just 1 more than dearest Estherr smell .
haha.
i'm so tired ! finally got dragged of the comp
and forced to study.
terms are coming though, what to do ?
so tits up, the thing is, i can't use the comp for 2 weeks
so much unfinished business !
like editing my friendster profile and feeding my online fetus.
wtf. lol.
i'm really bored, as you all can tell
and i've exceeded the 1hr slot i weaseled out of my dad by 1 minute now
which will soon stretch to 5 minutes because i haven't finished blogging.
sigh
studying really saps me, i can't believe how other people can do it so well
well sure, the urgency of O levels actually drove me on last year
but what the hell. i'm sure it was God that gave me that B3 on physics.
freak show.
'cos you see, i was determined to ditch physics for Os.
but decided ahh heck, just study on the day of the exam la,
might as well kill that 4 hours after Geography ended before the test started
so i studyed (rather) studiously in a noisy cafe at school,
and poof, a B3 from C6
but i'm just digressing, so back to my current predicament : studying
i HATE studying
i ABSOLUTELY HATE studying
there's nothing more sapping than studying what you NEED to study
i could look through Estherr's history textbook and enjoy reading it
although it's a stupid textbook i enjoy reading it, why ?
because i don't need to LEARN anything from it.
sure, i'm still learning from it anyway, aren't i ?
but haha. the fact that i don't need to consciously learn from it satisfies me.
yeah, i'm weirddd.
-enough ranting and raving.
is this enough tripe to satisfy my blog viewers ?
the *loyal* peeps from school
and the occasional wandering turtle ? heh.
ooh. check out www.sarongpartygirl.blogspot.com
yeah, she's got the media hype breathing down her neck
well i'll admit that i went there out of interest of the n00d pic haha
but i realised, like another blogger i know,
she writes rather good material. bummer.
pshht to all the other horny young men out there
muaha.
yepp.
gotta go.
'cos dad just came into the room
cant blog anymore
bye !
wS thought about life at 9:27 pm
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