well. spent the long week end catching up on the Lost craze.
it's a pretty good show,
deleted my OC season 1 to make space for Lost season 1
haa. it was 11GB man, wtf ?

i'm bored.
Marilyn and Yan Ling didn't go on friday
haa. Marilyn didn't even go on monday (today)
woke up feeling queer, a bit sick,

sick of school
sick of the teachers
sick of the crap there
sick of people you don't want to see (mainly teachers)
sick of the air to breathe there
sick of lessons
sick of recess
sick of lunch
sick of the free periods in between
sick of all the pressure

...well you get the idea how detestful i find school eh?
went to the docs at around 2, got an MC for 2 days
really great, seeing that i hate school so much

Darius' party is this Saturday
no idea what to buy him, but it'll be something good
'cos he's been the greatest gift-giver to me (:
Ds's 3 Doors Down CD -vs- Qing-Xing-Su-Shaun's Eminem Encore CD
no comparison man, Ds totally owns all. haa
anyway he's my best peep outside school too. so it rocks
i wonder what he wants. hmm.
shucks..

watching episode 6 of Lost now,
it's really addictive. but limewire totally lags my comp after i leave it on
i have to leave it on to download stuff, if not nothing gets going

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

// Hurt - Nine Inch Nails

`you
you are my broken thought
you are my strings of control
you weave my body in circles unimaginable
like interlocking dancers in momentum
of frenzy, of fury
like the enclave of demons
they bite, snap, hurl
their corpulence at you, ending
every trace of innocence
you are my lost hope
you are my burnt candle
whose wax falls dripping like
ether in the evening snow
would you hold me now
if i should fall
or leave me be
in the darkness that shrouds
covering all my thought
revealing all my insanity

`school
give me wings so i can fly,
above this mire of human waste
this center of bloody sacrifice
i need to break free
away from here
i still recall the taste of the fear
a ringing haunting echo in my ear
so take me away from here
let me be a dream evaporating
into the morning mist
the rapid evanescence
take my being
and bring me away
where i won't see what i don't want to see
please make this all go away
i'm bound to just this one fate
and i cannot escape