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so i'm standing here in the rain
scratching my head . where did we go ?
where did this path lead to .
i'm sorry to say i'm freaking scared of what's going to happen next
will the road split and we lead our seperate ways
or will we travel the distance together


so all we're going through is one big winding journey
i don't know where i'm going
but maybe you do
because you're gonna be the one that saves me
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today was great
although i was freaking sick
think i'm bleeding internally or something
coughed blood out this morning in the sink
looked in the mirror and saw my eyes were sunken
was totally freaked out.
i'm a shadow of my former self.
but mid-day i sorta recovered and was okay.. for awhile i guess
the entire school day just passed me by. was so tired. was so jaded.
maybe i just don't want to face up to my fears
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went to clementi mrt station with qing.. again
and oh my god life freaking sucked from that point on
his mom came and drove him off so i was all alone
walking to the bus stop, i bumped into this freaking mat accidentally
and he just whacked me damn hard in my gut. like. WTF ?
so what if you had a bad day, i had one too right .
well i won't be the nerd that gets bashed and bitches on my blog
so i whacked him on his face and he went sprawling.
guess what.
his friends came running after me. gg no re-
fuck almost died running
ran into some hdb blocks nearby and up to the 5th floor before they stopped chasing
assholes. like wtf. that totally spoilt my day
i hope i broke his nose man.
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went home and realised i was shitting blood
oh my god. im damn fucked up already.
coughing up blood from every single orifice in my body
i think i better go visit the doc or something
freaking malays. what's their problems. freaking punks.
feeling super funny now.. abit dizzy
can smell the iron in my nose.
God.
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and i'm just feeling damned sad
because there's no way i can get the girl of my dreams
she's probably forgotten about me
what the hell. i hate my life.
it's kinda sucking right now.
this was a bad-good-bad-bad day.
ah.