and so people around me are playing DotA or CS as i blog this entry
at Ginza now, decided to try out the LAN scene awhile more, just to get the feel of speed
stupid home comp lags every 2 seconds i make my Death Knight scratch his butt so i gave up
freaking hell i'm like doing so bad with Chang at ATs. Maybe it's his micro
but i'm not pointing fingers 'cos i know he'll just get pissed at me
hope me doesn't read this stupid entry..
know it isn't my micro that's got a problem. but hell all he wants is archer-ghouls and Ranger
like wtf. i cant even micro ghouls. they're so hard to bloody micro without any auras.
damned ghouls. they just died to shockwave-nova spams.
okay. for those who didn't understand what i just said. it was about War3. FT.

so it's damned funny. me and qy went to Clementi again.
didn't bump into those mats.. luckily
didn't feel like getting pwnt again.. and qy isn't such great backup ya
hahaha. feeling so bored
i need some excitement in my life again
school's getting so cyclitic that i feel like puking


p.s just to digress :
some GoD2 loser is playing on the comp next to mine
bloody GoD2 he's this long haired teenage joker with acne
hmm. he didn't see sOz on my channel name i guess...


well i just did. puke.
i'm yawning everyday now. and i'm losing my precious rest
stupid shit i can't even think straight now.
i better get this bullcrap out of my mind before i go bonks over it
so like.
my dad got pissed at me yesterday 'cos i didn't want to listen to him
but he was just shouting at me. don't respect people who yell at you
they're turds. switch off.
so they both went to bed and i finally got up to bathe
was out with my mom for 'retail therapy' earlier on.. came back pretty late
at least it took my mind off things


sat on my bed naked after my bath. hmm shouldn't be saying this here. but heck.
took out an old friend from the drawers.. Marlboro Lights haha.
thought id abandoned the stupid thing but something just made me light one up
didn't smoke it, just held it between my fingers over the wastepaper basket..
looking at the smoke swirl through the air.. breathing in the narcotic scent
felt.. heavenly. once you've been tainted i guess you can't erase the ride
some shit happened later. won't blog about it here.
but it left me super jaded. fucking hell. it makes me wonder what life really is all about.
but i guess that's too deep so.. fuck it too.
read book 8 of GTO : fuckin' Onizuka really rocks. wish he was my teacher. heh.
drank a whole bottle of Wild Turkey and knocked out on bed
the friggin alcohol was playing tricks on my fucking mind
think i started tripping. felt a craving to pump one fag again.. bloody hell
i'm so lame. i just resort to smoking to escape from my problems. that just bites
gotta solve it somehow. but hey.. smoking's a stigma when you're in jc
but i guess when you grow up it just becomes natural.
don't intend to be one.. but the ride is so great
it's like after i smoke there's a choking feeling in my throat and you feel lightheaded
it's like there's no sound around you and you're just feeling good.
disclaimer : THAT is only after your first few tries and when you get used to it
then you drink some fucking booze and the cold washes down your throat and clears it
feels great. feels top of the world. but hell, i don't recommend it
it's expensive to uptake and it just screws with your health.


school today was .. bad-good-good-bad-good i guess
bad because the day started out shit with me and my fucked up hangover
stumbled out of bed and stubbed my toe on the bloody dustbin
couldn't find my toothbrush (it was in my shower.. wtf)
got yelled at by my mom for not fucking getting into the car on time.
got better later.. school was great on it's own
hung out mostly with Yanling and XinYi during class.. they're such slackers
feels good to be with people i can understand.. hey. i slack. but i produce results right
hahahaha. fuck society. i'm not a chao mugger but i still fuck you nerds up. pwn.
ponned chinese.. poor Mr Loy he's a great guy.
i'll go to class if me ponning gets him into trouble. he's the greatest horny, cool and pro teacher
EVER.
was bad in the end because suddenly a myriad of fucking emotions started hitting me again
like wtf. i thought i got over it. but nope, it came back
felt like shit for awhile and qy and st had phys make-up lecture.. they're going to have a test tmr
so i waited for them at the void deck with a coupla girls from my class
Clarisse and JiaYi had drama.. so was left with Serene
she totally rocks, she's super funny! never fails to make me laugh
she's a great friend yeah !
we went to sit with Jane later, this girl from my ex-class.. which i really miss terribly
but i love SD3 too. they ROCK HOLY SHIT OWNING. kinda thing. 9-0
talked alot of bull about how Jane won't date me and how i love her haha.
what rot. but it's nice, easy-going banter that takes the piss out of life
which kinda rocks. 'cos everyone needs the piss taken out of them sometimes
feels good.
they went for harp later.. left alone till those 2 jokers came down
and oh my God . i did cross-stitching ROFL. this girl let me do her cross-stitching for her
was quite funny. hey, i did 4 stitches PERFECTLY. now if that isn't pwn. what is !?
haha.


wS tried pimpin' every single cigarette that came his way
but the narcotics squad came and took his pimpin' gear away