gothic .
swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent death
oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light
in my field of paper flowers
of candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me...
life's really lethargic.. without meaning
when you don't have much of a goal to work towards to
the allures of just having fun all day suddenly wears thin now
i just.. don't feel like slacking anymore ?
strange .
skipped chinese again . double period .
went home early to take a much needed nap .
felt really tired this week
maybe because i'm hardworking once again. wow .
never expected myself to be that way
life just ebbs away
all the fun i've had just pulls apart like a thin veil
maybe because i don't treasure much of my memories at heart
but i never fail to forget the more meaningful ones
now there's only one constant left that supports me
and i'm lacking the courage to face up to her .
so shoot me.
i just feel.. meaningless
i should take up a hobby
like.. stamp collecting, kite flying or hell, alligator wrestling
beats the shit out of stoning around all day
i'm sick of the computer already
what's the fun if there's no one to talk to or play with
boring -
C's going to RJC.
it's already confirmed. guess what
she got 11, the same as me
that's just bad-ass karma
too bad we aren't fated
anyway, i don't think i would've really loved her
didn't feel anything much between us anyway
yawn -
oh well holidays next week.
no more stoning ! i get to go out everyday hmmm.
expect a much healthier blog from me then !
