She Loves Me Not_ //
i don't know if i care
i'm a jerk
life's not fair
fighting all the time
this is out of line
she loves me not, loves me not
do you realise
i won't compromise
she loves me not, loves me not
she loves me not .
Clare's gone forever .
depression isn't going to do any good .
been there, done that .
get over it . yeah .
i never knew why i liked her .
maybe she's so pretty, so talented .
hey, isn't that common ?
oh shucks . maybe she was forbidden , i don't know .
Qy told me she had a boyfriend, then i confirmed it through other sources .
and still i went on and on and on till the shit hit the fans .
wow . sue me i'm dumb .
truth be told, i never really fell for her .
i told myself that's a girl i wanted .
but now.. reflecting, she wasn't the one i always wanted .
i've never spent time with her at all much .
never talked much . what's there to work on ?
back to a lighter issue : results
well . it's coming out in approximately , 2 hours, from the time i type this .
will i be looking up at a bright future ,
or looking down from the top floor of a building .
wow . i don't know either .
what i want is to be somewhere with people i love .
doing something that i want to do .
that's all . just 2 simple requirements .
broken hearts _ broken homes //
i want to get this over and done with .
shivering . will i get to where i want to go .
i know where i want to go . and that's wherever she goes .
sounds stupid ? maybe . probably .
oh well .
i wish ..
i could find the courage to tell her that i love her .
but . the past seems to be holding me back .
i can't do anything - but look on as she passes me by .
.... shit .
