judgement falls next friday . my o level results .
i know it doesn't mean jack later on . but it means everything now .
do i get to stay in ACJC? do i remain or do i go .
do the people i love and treasure remain or do they go .
i feel shackled to an ironcast ball.. unable to tear free .
i hope it isn't sinking too rapidly .
Clare received a letter to teach.. skipping JC .
i don't know what it means but apparently it seems you scored between 14-20 points .
if you got that letter .
i'm praying i don't get that . but does that mean
Clare's gonna go ?
another person lost . shit .
Marilyn tells me it's based on prelims though . i really hope so .
i just realised today how much my friends really mean to me .
Qing and
Su are just casual peeps . i can't go in depth with them they don't understand .
sure i can consult them on studies, discipline, revision tips.. etc .
but i can't do jack on love .
Xing's so much more understanding . not that i'm putting anyone down .
everyone's different at doing things yeah so i can't expect everything out of anyone .
Xing's a good listener . though he has no experience in love issues it's still nice to talk to him .
cos he listens really well and i feel good later on .
thank you brother !
oh well trashed a coupla chairs and tables i gotta learn to be more composed .
people who give into physical violence are just immature in expression of angst .
i've yet to cultivate that level of mental strength and tolerance .
maybe that's why i'm so damned emotional .
shucks . i really love my classmates .
+Amanda+Clare+Cheryl+
+Diane+Felicia+Gan Yang+
+Ivan+Jane+Jia Qi+
+Joseph+Joshua+Li Ling+
+Nicolas+Shaun+Stephanie+
+Ting Wen+Wang Yu+
i hope the people i really like won't leave
it'll be different. especially you guys Clare and Shaun .
idk what will happen after friday .
but i hope we'll be able to keep in touch somehow .
i'm sorry for not being the best classmate in the world
i'm sorry for not being able to give all i could .
i've been the most selfish bastard the world produced .
and i think i've been too beng . it's time to stop it.
i never wanted to be beng . that's just full of shit .
for the record :
) i don't fucking smoke
) i don't drink... often
) i don't practice squating by the roadside
) i don't look scruffy 'cos it's cool
) i look scruffy 'cos i feel more comfortable like that
) i don't pick fights for kicks
) i don't wear a safety pin to show off
) i wear a safety pin 'cos i like it
) i won't heisitate to kill you
) neither will i heisitate to be the greatest guy you've met
) it all depends on whether i like you , you see
) so sue me i'm selective . isn't everyone?
had a talk with Marilyn late into the night .
her dad came in suddenly so she had to put down haha .
wanted to call her later on but i fell asleep oh well .
anyway she's busy tomorrow so i guess i shouldn't disturb la right ?
-grins
i know you like to think your shit don't stink..
lean a bit closer see...
roses really smell like poo poo poo...
haha i like that song . oh wells .
i hope no one leaves ACJC .
sighs .
