dreaming in red .
slack-time has officially ended as of now .
no more excess free periods .
no more lounging around the school .
ahh . the joys of work come crashing in .
maybe... ...
jay chou sings so marvellously well !
'An Jing' , 'Jian Dan Ai' and 'Qing Tian' are such beautiful poetry .
i wonder how he gets his voice so nice . Years.. years.. of practice .
. it's a nice dream to dwell upon . maybe i can reach it someday ?
it's all about the faith you have in yourself i guess ..
" ... i'll be here ...... "
" ....... waiting ... "
" .... why ? "
" ... i'll just be waiting ... "
everyone's just waiting for something .
be it happiness .
be it fulfilment .
be it acceptance .
but we all have to take this long path alone .
each seeking our own desires ?
will we seek till we find what we want .
or just drop it half-lorn like a rejected toy ?
life isn't really much different from a child's plaything .
it's whims and fancies all changes in the human landscape .
dreams . do they mean that much ?
without them . i guess we may not live but just merely..
thrive .
i caught myself looking into a rusted mirror today ..
uncomprehending the words that its mirrored image deemed to tell me .
somebody threw away my yesterday .
forgetting my past . that's the worst way to run away .
shouldn't do it .
shouldn't allow it .
but yet i do it . why ?
sometimes i just feel like walking away .
feeling so cold .
life sifts past me in a daze .
my drunken stupor remains adequate for my current passion .
i feel sapped . lifeless . thoughtless .
it's as if i'm just moving along .
flowing with the rest of the world .
like a sheep . penned up in its paddock .
i need to break free of this cast .
this cycle . ugh .
... i'll be waiting .
