wow .
haven't blogged in awhile . feeling so .. tired with life .
don't know why . everything hasn't been going my way .
...
lots of things .
i'm miss everyone . i'm not sure why but i do .
i really miss one person so much that i can't breakaway . i just keep thinkin about it .
feeling so down .
there's no purpose in my life anymore .
it's so insecure . . the o levels and the Prelim admissions .
you never know where you'll end up . but you've gotta try .
i'm just so scared of falling .
and failing to make the people around me proud .
..
today was so screwed .. at night..
morning went to Lan at Cine with my friends ..
supposed to meet there.. in the end only 2 turned up . Geez .
went to PS later to help plan for the youth camp .
it's gonna be a blast . really . i hope everything works out fine .
please pray for it people !
..
screwed up night .. was on war3 all night long .
played Legacies with Chua .. we died so many times it started to become stupid .
so we left .
played DotA with that person and his friends .
ended up on a team full of leavers . had to fight 5 people alone ..
and the next game . was so tired . i feel asleep at the keyboard .
couldn't do anything much.. just too tired.
..
sigh .
.
.
nevermind . i don't really care anymore .
there's nothing interesting in this life .
no ... opportunities . no understanding .
i swear everyone around here is full of fake facades . all lying through their teeth .
pretending to be people whom they never were or never will be .
it's so sickening . sickens me to the core .
i hate liars who do it out of spite , or for their own selfish needs .
please grow up you people . the world WILL be much better off without people like you .
...
grgrgrgrgrgrgrgrgrgrrrgrgrgrrgr ,
so damned angry .
im so tired . . and angry .
Terr , are we going to play the instruments at youth ?
are we good enough ? Aren't you and Ern gonna do it ?
.... well i'll be glad 2 help out . don't mind at all .
but it depends on Sam's decision too . . we can't have 3 guitarists .. there's no bass either right .
sigh .
worship better be good . make it happen girl ! . .
...
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i really do .
... but i don't really hate anyone .