Snooze.

Another boring day. Can't believe this. I feel my life is wasting away.
I want to do something better. I need adrenaline in me.
This suspension eats into me. Like maggots in a wound.
Nagging me. Oh. My. It's unbearable.

Fuck.

I'm pissed. I'm high on a lullaby that isn't there.
Balls @ you. As my friend would say.
Do i consider them my friends? Maybe.
At least they don't kick you when you fall.
Unlike some people in this world.
They befriend you. They charm you. Then they get you.
Bunch of ASSHOLES.
You know who you are.

Life is wasting away. The sun rises and sets. This cycle never goes away.
You are my epiphany. I need you.
Don't you know that? It hurts without you. Yet i don't want you.
It hurts when I'm with you.
It hurts when I'm without you.
How should I feel. Hurt?

I'm not strong inside. I wish I could be.
Maybe past experiences don't deny me the strength.
But I know that deep inside. I can't handle this.
I'm too weak. Too guilible. I can't do this. I need you.

But now i know i must be strong.
Life's journey has to be carried on. It's only a matter of time.
We'll see. Time will tell. It tells everything.
But right now i don't need anyone. Anymore.
It's my waste of time.
Trusting people. Who don't return your honesty.
No integrity.

I don't need ANYONE. Anymore.